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A page in the diary "Finding My Lost Happiness.."
Written by dreamerz Nov 17 2008 07:54 PM

Every night before I close my eyes, I tell myself tomorrow WILL be a better day. And when tomorrow night comes, I'd wish it was just the night before. Because there's only so many rotten days I can take.

Sometimes I feel the person who started the phrase "tomorrow WILL be a better day" never lived the life I have. Yet, sometimes I ponder if I'm too selfish and greedy. You don't see the blind man selling tissues complaining about life. You see his smiles and feel ashamed when he says a good word or two about today.

When will it ever be enough? When will I ever be satisfied with what I have, how I feel? Is wanting to be happy so tough to attain?

All I want is to be able to smile from my heart..

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Comments from the community:

Hi Dreamerz,

You can and you WILL. I'm trying too.

Sometimes the condition improves, sometimes it gets worse. I find it impossible to smile at all about a month ago but now, on rare occasions, I'm able to.

The key, is get into the crowd and start socialising. If you find it hard, even sitting down at a busy road helps -- just observe the people going pass and I'm sure some of their dressing or behaviour can make you smile or laugh.

Take small steps at a time and congratulate or reward yourself every time you succeed.

Written by Moissanite, Nov 17 2008 08:41 PM

Hi Dreamerz,

I had been through trying times in the past..and I had slowly walked out of it and become a more thankful and appreciative person.

When I began to look back...i felt that I was a person that had taken things for granted in the past and was unhappy most of the time.And when I started to feel thankful and show appreciations to the people around mi..that is ooso the time when I had slowly walking out of the trying times...I am thankful for the body I had..a pair of eyes to see...ears to hear..legs to walk...and things that people had done which had filled my hearts with joy. Though sometimes..I would still feel unhappy because of some challenges I had..I told myself I wan to choose to be happy and to overcome the challenges I had.

SMILE :))

Journey

Written by Journey, Nov 18 2008 01:04 AM

the tissue paper uncle leads a very simple life--- ... so dun let ur brain take u on roller coaster ride to complexities--jus try 2 simplify; i guess...

Written by 71damsel, Nov 18 2008 10:00 PM

I do not know if tomorrow will be a better day. I would just like to tell u that i ACKNOWDEDGE what you feel.......i'm feeling this all the time.

Written by EmotionalFlu, Nov 19 2008 10:31 PM

Yes life sometimes it is hard to be happy. There are many subtle expectations imposed on us by society, family n even ourselves. When we think we are happy, ppl also can come to make us feel guilty for being too happy. It is a pressure in being happy n also not being happy... either way we can feel trapped by circumstances just making us more confused. That is modern life today. Conflicting n emotionally draining.
There must be a way to work things out ard this though...

Written by problematic, Nov 25 2008 02:52 PM

Wanting to be happy and being happy are two different things. Some can want to be happy for their entire lives. Some can be happy for their entire lives.
End your day by say 'today is a great day' rather than hoping for a better one.

Written by fuzzy, Dec 8 2008 08:43 PM

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