Difficult Times
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Written by emmanuel Sep 24 2008 07:30 PM
I know some depnetters are going through a rough time now. When a person is in such a time, you think that it is better to end your life. You cannot see a future. You feel you can't get out of it. You feel hopeless. You feel you will never recover. In such time, you cannot realise what your friends and love ones are saying to you. Their advice and suggestions make you feel worse. Nobody seems to understand you. Everyone you meet is out to get you. After diagnosed with schizoprenia, I led a horrible and irresponsible life for about a decade. I blamed my mother for the stage I am in. I finally realised my mistake and I went to look for a full time job which I managed to stay for 2.5 years. Initially, I thought I would never be able to hold down a job but I did it. I went to a higher paying job for another 2 years and then I got married which at first I thought given my family background, I will never find true love and furthermore I was diovorced. And I don't have much savings. These years, I have gained more confidence in myself. Accepted myself. So never give up. Even a rotten person like me can now be whole so can you. It's time to move on.....