Tired~
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Written by jaymee Oct 22 2008 10:47 AM
Been feeling unwell recently..persistent headaches and feeling exhausted. went to see the doctor, he says its due to stress and gave me 2 days of MC. so i m just going to rest at home and shut myself out. but i will have to go back to school and face reality after this. i feel that i m weak, compared to my peers=( i m always falling sick and feel stressed out and tired easily, while they seem to be coping well with life. my grades are very bad..and i think its due to my depression that i keep lacking motivation, cant focus, feel tired all the time or feel like giving up halfway=/
yet i m still trying..because i know i m not stupid..i could get good grades and outdo others in the past but not anymore..something happened along the way. now my peers are all doing better than me, and i m struggling. i feel lost and my self-esteem is at an all time low. i cant confide in others because i think i will be judged and gossiped about, and i dun want them to feel that i m weak and pitying myself. i have to put on a strong and cold front everyday. and sometimes i m frustrated but i have no one to talk to, i have mood swings that nobody understands, cuz they dont know what i m going through.
i will be out of university and into working life in less than 2 yrs time and i m worried about the future, about not being able to take the competition out there.
boy, it's tiring me out.