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The question was submitted 07/22/2008

Subject: nothing matters anymore

honestly i dont know where to start. i'm full of despair. i've been seeking treatment on/off. all these years, each time i fall apart i would go see a shrink. when things start to look bright again i stop taking the antidepressant and try to join the mainstream. i don't understand why crash each time i go off medication.

i am currently taking my medication faithfully while trying to pick up the pieces. it(the pill) help ease the pain but i also lost the 'fire' in me. i drift thru everything in life.. go to work, etc even during my holidays one full week in chiangmai i simply float. i trekked thru the forest, paddled in the river things i used to enjoy most, just couldn't savour the moment. even the marijuana does not cause any euphoria. nothing matters anymore and i do think of ending it all. the thoughts of this pains me cos i don't wish to hurt the people around me

my question is where do i donate my organs, since my soul is useless might as well do some good before i check out of here

Answer from DepNet

Hi,

It is very clear that you need to stay compliance to your medication. As you mentioned, everytime you stop, your relapse happened.

Your inability to enjoy activities as much as you want to is due to your depression. Once you are able to stabilize it, you will once again enjoy those activities that you love.

Pls take care,

Depnet 

The answer was published on DepNet 08/05/2008