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The question was submitted 11/16/2008

Subject: Living with a monster

I call it a monster - grief, depression - cos' that's what I think it is.

I didn't invite it in. In fact, I tried to keep it out. Still, it crept into my life ever so silently and I now have to live with it. I tried to imagine it's not there, or that even if it's there, it's ok. It's not ok. For it came with a mission: to destroy my life.

Pretending it's not there is not an option anymore. The monster has left visible footprints. I'm not strong enough to fight it yet. I tried, but the monster won every time. My wounds are still raw and bleeding. Maybe one day I will be strong enough, and then, maybe...the monster will go away.

There are people around me who constantly avoid talking about the monster. (Well, I guess monsters aren't very popular creatures around.) There are people who think I made up the monster and it's not real. (Some of these people think the Loch Ness monster exists). So it can be frustrating. After all, I can't fight the monster alone - something I've learnt.

And so, I thank you dear people @ Depnet, for fighting with me. You've helped me understand the monster better and what ammunition I need to guard/fight against it. You've helped draw up a battle-plan and constantly remind me I'm not alone. Most importantly, you made me believe that one day I'll prevail against the monster.

Thank you.

Hannah

Answer from DepNet

Dear Hannah,

Thank you for your kind reply. We at depnet are certainly encourage by your comments.

Take care.

Regards,

Depnet

The answer was published on DepNet 11/17/2008