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Written by bigman 01 April 2009 02:11

dear diary, i still cant sleep. And it driving me nuts. I think it is because the new meds that my doc prescribe to me. hmmm. But i think the meds work in someways. I can maintain my positive thinking most of the time now. rather than just 5 minits.

But at least there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Last weekend my good friend took me and force me to joint salsa class. I was feeling down, inferior and so unwanted at first. But then, the people there are so friendly. They approach me, talk o me, and so supportive on the lesson and also my social skills and some of them i found out have the same problem as mine. And went i am with them i felt i am apart of something. And i can take a brake from my problems.

I dont know i can work on everyone, but rite now i want to try to make it works for me. dear lord.. thank you..

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Comments from the community :

hey man its good to hear you had fun and able to talk and share with others. keep going and meeting people, it does help. you won't feel so alone

eek. i have problems falling asleep too, so i know what you mean but i'm a nocturnal and i get stuffs done at night cos it's nice and peaceful.

the side effects usually will go off sooner or later, since it's a med you gotta give it some time.

Written by Anonymous, 01 April 2009 02:26

Hey, you're not the only night-bird around.
A lot of late sleepers in Singapore actually I've come to realise.
At least you joined some salsa class. For me, I don't know if I even got the guts to join any class. I am a loner type at times.
How ah. You think I should try join some class? Maybe it may knock me out of my shell. :)

Written by problematic, 01 April 2009 02:30

Hey too Abulia, hope you're feeling ok?
Stay hopeful no matter what. What else can we do?
At least you got things to do at night and enjoy the peaceful quiet of it.

Written by problematic, 01 April 2009 02:31

gotta keep the mind busy.. can't let it deteriorate!

Written by Anonymous, 01 April 2009 02:36

i am not really ok.. but don't worry. i will be seeing my shrink on thursday. hope he can help me.. so freaking suicidal.. i am scared to death

Written by Anonymous, 01 April 2009 02:38

Hey come on. Don't be so suicidal and negative, ok. It is not worth it, trying to kill yourself. I saw your profile. Your location is keyed in as, "hell".
Maybe if you could change that location description, you'd take that first step to feel a bit better?
Try it, trust me, it works.
Don't invite all these dark portals into your life.
I just hope you get better.
Me too, struggling to stay afloat and keeping mentally balanced. Darkness sometimes threaten my thoughts but for now, I am managing to stay balanced.

Written by problematic, 01 April 2009 02:54

i think i might have to see doc sooon. i am fast turning "cloudy" maybe lack of sleep? but its not the mood thing. so it might be something else.

i tihnk its really brain dead liao...

Written by Anonymous, 01 April 2009 06:39

thanks all. ya i just go and do it. i said what the hell. its fun and not mentioning nice gurl that are open minded at chat and dance with u. haha. well i thin the meds can only help u 50% the other half we got to find our own way.

Written by bigman, 06 April 2009 20:10

errr, so still taking salsa class?!

Written by problematic, 14 April 2009 05:37