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if only you are still here now, you will know what to do.

you will ask me to go over, when you hear me cry over the phone.

you will made my fave prawn fritter and a warm, nice dinner to comfort me.

you will not ask me anything that I don't wan to answer and if i do want to share, you will only listen and not comment or criticize me.

after dinner, we will sit in front of the tv and watch till its bedtime.

you will ask me what i would like to have for my breakfast tomorrow, before you rest your tired body down to rest.

in the morning, the breakfast that i wanted will be on the table, as i am woken up by your gentle voice.

i will help you with some chores, especially the window cleaning, as you are not allowed to climb that high by doctor's order.

then time passes speed of light, as evening approaches. you will be up and about in the kitchen, preparing yet another round of delicious, heartwarming dinner.

it won't be long before i have to leave your side to that cold, dreadful house of mine. you gave me a 10, coz you know i won't have any pocket money for the rest of my school week.

you will stand by the corridor, and look out from where you will be standing and wave goodbye to me, as i slowly walk my way out of your sight. and i know you will still be there for a while...

and i feel loved, wanted, and accepted... and i feel home... i can still remember that night vividly, its only about 18 or 19 yrs ago...

If only you are still here now, you will know just what to do...

i miss you, nan