i'm tired like some of us here
A page in the diary "A stressful day.."
Written by faith_berry 02 February 2010 00:02
today is not so good a week for me to start with.. my colleague was on hospitilisaion leave for a week and her duites were re-shuffled.. i got a shock when i was task to do some of her duties, i begin to panic as i wasn't really prepared for it.. my heart was pumping v fast and i def do not like this feeling.. i feel as if i cant concentrate for a while and struggle to complete my tasks. during lunch i lost my appetite, i felt nausea with alot wind in my stomach, i believe it was due to the stressful morning i had..
this is my 9th mth in my 4th job, i really wish to settle dwn in a job that i will not feel like giving up again, it is really tiring to keep trying and yet cant seems to succeed in overcoming my stress management..
my doc had referred me to a psychologist but i had postponed the appt for tomorrow to march bcoz of the sudden work arrangement.. is there really a problem with me or some pple juz have low threshold for stress? i dun think it's too difficult a job, why can others do it and i cant?? is it alright to keep to a simple job or am i running away from the problem?
i'm glad im not the sole breadwinner curently and am consoling myself in this aspect.. i do hope i can share the burden with my spouse-to-be.. sometimes i feel really guilty for showing face to my partner because of the stress i had at work..
I really hope i will be happier in my next job.. do not intend to renew my 1 yr contract in june this year, i guess i cant do much but hang on for the time being..