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Hospitalisation?

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Written by tatty_girl 11 February 2010 00:59

Went 4 my appt to see my psychiatrist 2dae. While waiting for my queue number, I' was thinking if I'm doing d rite thing or not.

When its my turn, I came in n Dr J was already there, sitting n checking my case notes n letting m sit down. I was anervous wreck! She said is been more than 6mths since I last saw er and ask if I did see any dr for my condition since at the tym when she saw me, I was still unwell. I told her I've had enough and want to try to manage things on my own. Be strong like wat others expect.

She was a nice Dr who explained abt skipping treatment n its cosequences n went on 2 ask abt my current life. Tld her abt exhaustion, abt being so stressed abt family's current financial situation. Told her I was doing ok at work but personal life, I'm a wreck!

I was crying as I release my pent up emotions and she was so patient to wait and hear me out. I was prescribed 0.25mg Sertraline and 15mg Zopiclone. I was telling Dr J dat I'm rly so exhausted and death is in mymind a lot of tyms. Told her abt the cutting dats happening vry frequently too.

After that, Dr said because I've 2 issues, depression n eating disorder, its better 2 treat d depression. I gave permission for them to take my case notes fm other hospital that I went to so dat nw, i've 2 go 2 only 1 hospital.

Guess what, she gave me a wks worth of meds and wanted to see me back nxt wk n see hw's my moods n eating issue n also d result of the blood test to ensure my insides are ok.

Dr J said that if I don't get any better, she said hospital mite be a gd way to stabilize the moods n eating... Bt it going to cause much trouble at work n home... i cant afford to lose my job 4 d 3rd tym... :(

i'm exhausted. drowsy aftr eating the sleeping tablet. so upset, angry, frutrated,annoyed!!! want to cry... want to sleep forever... tired...

Comments from the community

Hi tatty girl,

Glad to read this update about your latest psychiatric appointment.

I'm happy to hear that you are under the care of a very patient doctor.

I'm relieved to hear you had been honest in expressing what you have been feeling inside you to your doctor. You did the right thing, tatty girl. =)

It's perfectly understandable that you don't wish to lose your job again. None of us down here hopes to see that happening to you too.

However, if your condition continues to worsen, it may get out of control. By then you may be so affected that you are being admitted by others who observe that you are no longer emotionally stable.

So it comes down to this: continue and persevere with treatment while you still have some control over your own mind and heart or get sent to the hospital by your employer anytime when she senses you are no longer in control emotionally and mentally...

We are with you, tatty girl. You are not alone. Others like you may be reading your posts. They would have wished for you to be able to overcome this condition once and for all.

Take care, my friend. =)

Written by nw4m, 11 February 2010 11:09

Sounds like a nice doctor. Able to reveal which hospital?

Written by Life, 12 February 2010 13:57

In chinese, "Xiu xi shi wei le zhou geng chang yuan de lu" (rest so that we are able to continue our journey).. we ought to give ourselves a break when there's a need to, being exhausted is a sign that your body is giving you to tell you that you shd rest.. You deserve the break to continue the journey.. Conisder heeding your doc's advice.. Get well soon..

Written by faith_berry, 12 February 2010 16:31

GET WELL soon n love & HUGS virtually (" ,)

Written by 71damselfly, 12 February 2010 18:55

Thanks so much guys... really appreciate that there are pple out there who rly understand me other than my dr n a gd fren. read my recent post... i'm trying my hardest to avoid staying in hospital bt at the same tym i just dunno hw to continue when my body is shutting down on its own physically n mentally... haiz :'(

Written by tatty_girl, 12 February 2010 23:10

Hi girl,

same goes for me & my pdoc dun wish to see me being hospitalise again too.

Written by Turquoise, 18 February 2010 12:17