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Hospitalisation?
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Written by tatty_girl 11 February 2010 00:59
Went 4 my appt to see my psychiatrist 2dae. While waiting for my queue number, I' was thinking if I'm doing d rite thing or not.
When its my turn, I came in n Dr J was already there, sitting n checking my case notes n letting m sit down. I was anervous wreck! She said is been more than 6mths since I last saw er and ask if I did see any dr for my condition since at the tym when she saw me, I was still unwell. I told her I've had enough and want to try to manage things on my own. Be strong like wat others expect.
She was a nice Dr who explained abt skipping treatment n its cosequences n went on 2 ask abt my current life. Tld her abt exhaustion, abt being so stressed abt family's current financial situation. Told her I was doing ok at work but personal life, I'm a wreck!
I was crying as I release my pent up emotions and she was so patient to wait and hear me out. I was prescribed 0.25mg Sertraline and 15mg Zopiclone. I was telling Dr J dat I'm rly so exhausted and death is in mymind a lot of tyms. Told her abt the cutting dats happening vry frequently too.
After that, Dr said because I've 2 issues, depression n eating disorder, its better 2 treat d depression. I gave permission for them to take my case notes fm other hospital that I went to so dat nw, i've 2 go 2 only 1 hospital.
Guess what, she gave me a wks worth of meds and wanted to see me back nxt wk n see hw's my moods n eating issue n also d result of the blood test to ensure my insides are ok.
Dr J said that if I don't get any better, she said hospital mite be a gd way to stabilize the moods n eating... Bt it going to cause much trouble at work n home... i cant afford to lose my job 4 d 3rd tym... :(
i'm exhausted. drowsy aftr eating the sleeping tablet. so upset, angry, frutrated,annoyed!!! want to cry... want to sleep forever... tired...
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