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On last thurs, i got to finallt talk to my boss and revealed to her abt my depression, which is the main reason why i sick often and b'coz i've dafaulted on treatment. So I told her that I'm coping now and am goimg for treatment to get better. My boss wa understanding and she told me that so far, I'm doing a good job. She told me not to worry, continue treatment n meds and not to self medicate.

I felt a huge relief when I heard that. It felt like a burden is off my shoulder. I still have my job that I loved! I'm thankful for that.

But then, my happiness is definitely short-lived. I have some pressing issues at home with regards to finances and its driving me down the pit again... I'm simply exhausted with all this and the tiredness doesn't go away at all...

I was super depressed yestrday and still am today that I resorted to cutting myself. blood trickling all over my arms and legs (not that much) doesn't relieve the pain inside bt I wanted to do more than the superficial cuts. I can't let it be known to my family. I can't talk to anyone. I was angry, upset n extremely frustrated... got to punch the wall with my fist but nt satisfied... shold have simply broken my bones or bleed non-stop... let all the blood loose...

i'm trying my hardest to be fine bt its just overwhelming. one issue rsolved, another much bigger one sets in... i'm bloody tired... tired that i want to sleep forever...