Hi
I realised that I am constantly sensitive to how others see me and whether they are unhappy with me. I am afraid of others being unhappy with me. Recently, I realised that my mood is getting worst. Part of it could be due to work stress-uncertain whether I will be posted out, partly due to my son-because he refuses to learn (he has spelling every week) and also feel betrayed by my husband who do not understand why my friendship with a common friend has ended. I became suspicious of my husband-whether there is a third party as we are always apart and because there was a third party in our marriage and also during courtship.
I suspect I may be bipolar-as I could be extremely talkative, talking at the top of my voice and uncontrollable but don't feel depressed. Recently, I feel like I am getting depressed-with feelings of wanting to cry. Though I am still on anti-depressant, I feel like there is a relapse. Actually what is wrong with me?
It does sound like you are undergoing a lot of stress in many areas of your life. It is common to feel more sensitive to your environment and people around you when you are stressed. You also have an underlying diagnosis of depression which makes this high level of stress even more challenging for you. It is also understandable that you become more suspicious of your husband given the background of your relationship.
it is difficult to say if you are bipolar just based on one symptom. Sometimes people who are depressed may also feel not depressed at times. I would suggest you speak to your treating psychiatrist about your symptoms and there may also be a need to review your treatment regime.
Take good care.